Well~ Today is Monday, having the blues... During the first lesson my nose was like a running tap and it was dreadful. I try to wipe it off but it keeps coming ahhh... I should have prayed but i didnt. Haiz... Oh when i was waiting for bus to school the 1st few bus was packed and i prayed that the next one will not be full and ta-da! The next bus came and it had plenty of seats!! Praise the Lord!!! And during my break i went with some of my friends to Kfc as it was lunch time the chances of us not getting a seat is high i prayed once again and Ta-da! A table empty like it's just for us!! It's amazing man!!
Spending time with God is so worth it, He's so addictive, so good, so wise, the list could go on forever! Oh talking about wisdom, today i managed to do my assignment 1!! It's like wow i could do all of it, based on my maths background the chances of it being correct is so small but i did it will full confidence that it will be all correct!!
You know sometimes even when you didnt pray, God will still provide. It's like wow, he know what you need and already gave it to you before you asked. I couldnt help but praise and worship him! I gonna change my attitude, everything i do like studying, singing, dancing or even walking to be a worship to God! How can i not do that when i witness so many many awesome things he did for me? Even if i couldnt give much, i will give him that little all i have in me. I cant think of anything now but him, his glory, his power, his strength and most of all his love. I didnt felt this feeling before.. it's like the deeper i feel Him the more im able to resist temptation, to resist what of the world and not of Him. The change that is from God is just so satisfying.
When you love someone so deeply you won't wanna forget about that person, that person is always on your mind, you will plan when to meet, what to dress or maybe what to say even. Love is also about those tiny details, the little thank you given or just that little smile can make you so so happy. Love is also shown thru kissing, hugs, and holding hands, these things are build up from all those tiny things you do for that person. The more in love with that person the more intimate you want to be.
This is also how God loves us, He loves us so deeply that he always fixed his eyes on us! He send his only son to die for us. (i dunno about u guys, i think parents will understand this more) You know how painful it is to see you own son die when you have the power to protect him, when you have the power to create the entire universe. God have so much power but he send his son to die for things he created, which is humans, our sins scarred him beyond imagination. The sin-less died for the sinful in order to cleanse us. If He even send his own son to save us, can you even imagine how much he loved us? Those tiny details like bus that have seats for you, when you worried the place that your going to eat wont have any seats for you, He make it for you. It's like how parents treat you when your just born. No matter how bad you are, they will smile at you gently. That how God see us He knew how bad we are but he still loved us, he smile at us even more gently and even planned to make us good. To make us what we are meant to be, Only he could do that and only he knew cause he created us! God's love is just to big and complex but it's also simple, that's why it's hard to understand. I KNOW that God loves me but I cant FEEL his love, but after FEELING his love, understanding that he loves us is no longer enuff. You just will have the craving to feel his love over and over. And soon, all you want is to feel his love and after that you will want to repay his love for you, thru things that you do everyday. Do everything as a worship to the Lord, cause without Him the things that you are doing wont even be there. Soon after getting deeper and deeper, without hearing him and without feeling him, you will feel lost and confuse cause he is the light upon your feet.
Without him, you will feel like walking in a dark dark room. It's like how when u are adapted to the dark, you eyes start to see things in the dark. But suddenly a Light shine into your eyes, it hurts, Yes, you will close your eyes
or run to somewhere else without that light but somehow us human are drawn to that light but we are scared, we hesitate sometimes we cant take it anymore and run back to the dark place which you are comfortable with. But if you would just, endure thru the pain you feel in your eyes, you can see the wonderful things! The mountain, the ocean, the sky etc etc... If you stay in the dark can you see them? Everything is the same in the darkness. What do you do in the dark? Sleep? Curse? Are you cold in that darkness? Everyone longed for warmth but only that light can provide it! Not only he provide the warmth, the light give you even more! The ability to see all the wonders!
So we must bring light to the world cause we had felt that light and had everything that it provided us, we must save those who are still trap in that dark room, we must save them, cause in the dark they cant see and are lost but we who have the light can help them to see and let them feel that warmth that they never felt before in their entire life.
Love is the greatest! God is the greatest! Nothing can compare with him! His glory shine thru all the worlds! In him we have hope! In him we have everything! Have faith in him and all things will be added unto you! Believe in the unseen cause it is more blessed! Love God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength! Give thanks to all he have created! Give him all the praises he deserved! Thank Him for the blood! Worship him! His the purpose of my life! God is the lover of my soul! God's love regin forever and ever! God loves everything about us! No one is unworthy to him! All eyes will see, all ears will hear the glory of my Mighty God! Thank God for everything he did in my life! Thank God everything he had prepared! Thank God for every tests he given! Thank God for look at us 24/7! Thank God for worrying for us! Thank God for everything! My God is mighty to save! My God is awesome! My God is cool! My God is interesting! My God is love! My God is my hope! My faith is in my God! My everything is for my God! My blessings comes from God! My talent is from God! My Gifts is from God! Everything is from God! I will sing for my God! I will dance for my God! I will trust in my God! My God is great! My God knows me! My God heals me! My God is my provider! My God is wonderful! My God is awesome! MY God is my desire! MY reward is My God!!
Draw close to God, and God will draw close to you James 4:8(NLT).